wegh

[ltgmars]

I'm in a bad mood. I just had the buzzer portion of my quiz bowl tryouts, and I didn't even buzz in. Usually I wouldn't care (I knew I wouldn't do well anyway, and I still want to participate in QB as the Official Scorekeeper), but it's been an entire ordeal of depressing or stressful situations building on top of each other. For instance, Chem. class has been a bi-otch with a ton of homework, and most of the time I'm really not in the mood to do it. Also, I'm certain, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that the guy I'm "in like" with finds me annoying (don't say anything, Ilse - you can't prove it). I'm loud and annoying by nature, so I guess it makes sense, but it's still sort of depressing because, even though I can't imagine him feeling the same way about me as I do him, I still never get to talk to him anymore.

Add on to that the fact that I've been more tired than usual, even though last night I got roughly 10 hours of sleep. Also, I haven't gotten enough exercise, and I'm never going to be able to get back in shape because I don't have enough resolve to do so.

Everything's just so stressful...