a New York state of mind

(What is a "New York state of mind" anyway?)

Sorry that my posts have been kind of morbid lately (for the most part; my posts about Kamakari are borderline creepy, but never morbid). The funeral's on Thursday (I don't think I can go, 'cause it's in the morning and Thursday's my last day of work... I don't really want to go anyway, because dude, it's a funeral; I cried the entire afternoon during/after the memorial mass yesterday, so I don't think I can manage a funeral). The wake's today. Again, I don't really want to go. Besides, I think I've given Mr. Gerencher his due and thought enough about him and cried more than too much on his behalf. </terrible person>

But I had a lovely evening yesterday with my favoritest people ever. We ate dinner (though I just drank water) at Papa Vino's, and then we went to Alan's house, where I gave Alan his promised Super Smash Brothers Melee pwning (not really. I lost 3/4 matches with him, though I blame the stage for at least one of them. XD The last match was on Hyrule, and it was a beautiful match, though he won with a clutch move when we were both down to our last lives and injured like whoa). I really will miss these kids. So fscking much.

But Beth and I were talking in the car beforehand, and it really is odd that it all felt like some last-minute-happy-happy-before-we-all-ship-off-to-college reunion instead of a solemn-Gerencher-memorial reunion. We all get together for the purpose of remembering Mr. Gerencher and celebrating his life, but in the end, we end up goofing off and having fun like we usually would with such a close-knit group of friends. Realistically speaking, though, I think Mr. Gerencher would have wanted us to have fun instead of sit around and be sad for a long time. He was a nice guy when he wanted to be, after all. :D

So there you have it. Much quiet depressitude for the past few days and maybe a couple more days to come, though I've been keeping up with the RL posts on my f-list. After the sad stuff that I'm too much of a coward to go to today and tomorrow and moving Diki into Purdue on Friday, I'll spend the weekend catching up with scanlations/fics/whatevers that I've mostly skipped over recently, and then next week is my "organize your stuff, loser!" week. And also the week when I finally reveal my mailing address so that you guys can flood my college mailbox with LOVE~!

But yeah. Thanks for putting up with the rather :( :( :( me lately. ♥