pointless entry, but I need to get it out

[ltgmars]

It's been a funny summer for me. It's been a funny year for me, really. I have an epic's worth of baggage and feelings that I half really want to get into and half don't want to touch. I'm probably far from completely over it, but I'm trying to start fresh for the new school year, so here's my last hoorah, as brief as possible:

I think I'm a good person, but I realize I've been bad to people, intentionally or not. I've seen myself slip, become the worst version of myself, and I regret every moment of it -- we all make mistakes, and I'm happy to own up to mine and to learn from them. But the one thing that I can be confident in saying is that I always have tried, always will try, to be good to people. Sometimes I fail, but I try in everything I do, with everyone I'm in contact with (even if I'm not the best of friends with people, even when people don't think the things I'm doing are good things). My hope is that everyone tries to be good to people, because I truly believe that's something everyone's capable of.

I have a dozen other things I could say -- about the nature of internet caricatures and about the difference between venting and shit-talking and about my policy on confrontation (the good-connotation kind, the Haverfordian kind, with dialogues and mutual understanding and being honest about things that upset us and hoping that confrontation enhances relationships instead of souring them) -- but I told myself I'd be brief, and that's the main thing I wanted to get at. All I can ever do is try to be good to people, and all I can ever hope is that everyone does the same.


Now that that's out of the way, I suppose I can start to turn toward the future or whatever, so I'll try to get back to posting more regularly. I know you all have missed me.

Comments

[nicefinalbeam.livejournal.com]

I think I'm a good person, but I realize I've been bad to people, intentionally or not.

I've been there. :( Sometimes I've looked back on things and realized that maybe I didn't behave as rationally as I assumed in the moment. But life is a constant growing game, isn't it?

I always have tried, always will try, to be good to people.

I believe you! ♥ Welcome back. :)

[melonpunch.livejournal.com]

I know we aren't very close and we don't talk much, but I want you to know that I'm here supporting you. :)

I think that good people go through dark periods sometimes. And that's okay, because we are human. When we go through dark times, we have to hang on to what makes us US (does that make sense) and eventually things will get better.

♥

[whisper132.livejournal.com]

You know, love, the thing I adore about you is that you think, reflect on your actions. Very few people do, and that's why very few people are able to break their own boundaries and improve their hearts.

And I did miss you. You're fabulous, and things are a little less キラキラ when you're not about.

[rangerinblack.livejournal.com]

I'd like to hope that everyone tries to be good people, observation tells me otherwise, but I still have hope.

I hope all things get sorted out for the best with you ♥

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

But the one thing that I can be confident in saying is that I always have tried, always will try, to be good to people. I feel like even recognizing that is so much more than a lot of people can say. I definitely know people who take for granted that they're good to people and don't realize the reality of the situation. And I'm rooting for you!

Also, I definitely missed you! ♥

[clipsie.livejournal.com]

Ch'yeah, of course we've missed you. Missed you so very much.

I have no idea if I spelled "ch'yeah" properly. I don't even know why I wanted to use it. XD

It's good for people to be good people, and yay, reflection! As far as I'm concerned, you're a good person no matter what. I fear I may be biased, because you're so sweet to me and all, but a good person to me, and likely always will be. Besides, you try, and it's beautiful. You're beautiful (I've totally said this before).

Love love to you~

(I really shouldn't be allowed to comment in half asleep states, and I even realise this as a half asleep person, but whatever. XD)

[maishoku.livejournal.com]

Ugh, right there with you. Sometimes we just can't help letting some stuff slip out, though I know it's not an excuse - but like what Erin pointed out, life's a learning process, so let's do our best together! It makes me believe there's still some hope in humanity, seeing you thinking this way.

I definitely miss you and your posts.

[melonpanpoi.livejournal.com]

hmmm..yeah...this...I can relate to it!

and I miss your silly o-logs! :P

Konbawa!

[miyarale-kin.livejournal.com]

Hii girl!Nice to meet you!Midori desu!
By this post...it seems that I came a little...late?!
It's just me...or will you take a 'vacation' from your LJ's account?!srsr...
I read your post...and can I say you one thing:I just create my account because I wanted to myself a new start!!!Me being all by myself,in my way!!!
Isn't cool?
Well,I added you because I loooooove Nino's MORE column!!!
I wish lucky!Success and happiness!
Have a nice day!KissHugs♪